I got a job!

Yey ( happy dance here!!!)
God is really good! He blessed me with a wonderful job! I am really excited to start working this month!
Yey ( happy dance here!!!)

And the result is..(warning-long)

I got a text yesterday that it will be H's graduation. Wow, time really flies! At first, I wanted to stay at home instead but the opportunity to see my teachers and my classmates was just too hard to resist. Add to that is 2 hours of being away from home which is of course a big treat for me! Friday is also M's last day at his extended daycare (he is still in vpk) until I get a job which I hope to be pretty soon! So with those thoughts I got dressed and went to Palo Alto Church. I thank God I did. What a beautiful event! It was a blessing to be there! The opening prayer was so touching that T if that is her name was crying while leading the prayer. After that, the welcome remarks by their class president ended up with crying moments as well. It was only when Ms. S stood up that the ceremony became a little light. Ms. S reminded everyone that this was supposed to be a happy moment. I guess when you really feel it from the heart, you kinda cry! Or maybe they are just crybabies. My friend T commented "Wow, what a sobbing class!" I reminded her to be quiet as everyone turned their heads to our direction. A touching ceremony indeed. The family was all proud. Not only once, twice, thrice did somebody acknowledged a graduate! One would say, "That's my wife! That's my nephew! That's my cousin! etc. The sweetest was a grandma who just signed our from the nursing home. She loudly said.."That's my grandson!" What could be sweeter than that!
I thought that if I would be there the more I would not think about my test but it did exactly the opposite. Everyone would ask me about it! Everyone would comment I do this or do that. Oh, at least I learned that I could check it Saturday morning & if I really want it , Ms. S can check it as soon as graduation is over. All I had to do was call her..Of course I did not call her. I was too chicken..hehehe..
Once the graduation was done, I had a few precious minutes all by myself! Ohh..it felt so good to be just with me! It may sound weird but I love to spend time alone! And how I missed this time! So precious quiet moments! What a breeze!
When I got home, the first thing I did was....tada..I checked the computer. Of course the results were not there. It will be ready 48 hours after the test, business days..Which means Monday at 12noon. But my classmates said I could check it ..Or I could call Ms. S. But, but..
I checked again at 5pm! No results yet! Oh..I took H's M to the community health center and filled out paperwork. Can you now picture me trying to keep myself busy the whole time but the test results would just pop into my mind like the whole time..READ--ALL THE TIME!
I went to the gym, picked up M. Hubs offered to do the grocery and as a good woman who knows his man, I did not refuse his gracious offer. I gave him the list!
J, M's best buddy wanted to stay with us for a couple of minutes so I let them stay! Yup, the boys did kept me busy..but the test results is still in my mind!
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So it's Saturday morning now and no results yet! I checked the computer like 100 times and no results!
H decided that we start cleaning up the garage. We sorted our stuff and decided to move some gym equipment to J's house. A very worthwhile project indeed. I miss our diy projects. Never mind, spring will be here soon and I cant wait for our next home improvement!
Then we decided to eat at Royal Buffet as they have a happy hour- buffet for only $5.99 from 2-4pm who can beat that? The sushi was superb, hibachi was great! My tummy was so full. I enjoyed their sesame balls too!
By 5pm, we were home and of course I checked the computer!
When I opened it, it said " The exam results are AVAILABLE "
I was so nervous, my heart was pounding! My pulse rate could be 160bpm. My goodness!
It asked for my credit card! I had to pay $7.95 to get the results early or give myself the torture of waiting till next week for the results. I entered my card number blah blah blah..
And the results is..
I PASSED!!
I passed! I passed! I passed!!
I was jumping for joy! Thank you Lord! I then called MIL to read the computer screen. SHe said she didnt have her glasses. I forced her to read it as what if I have been reading pass when it had the words fail???
She hugged me and congratulated me! You passed! Wow!
I then went to our room where hubs was. He was of all places in the bathroom. I told him he has to come out now as I have very important news. He said he cannot come out! But he opened the door for me and asked what was it. He was clueless. I handed him the laptop so he read the computer screen with my name on it and the result--PASS! He hugged me tight! We thanked God for this wonderful blessing!
This is a very wonderful feeling! A triumphant feeling that I wish would last! Thank you my dear God! You are such an awesome God and to you I give back the glory and praise!
Thank you for making me a licensed nurse!
Now, my goal is to find a job!
Woot woot!
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I called Pinas of course and texted my friends afterwards! They were all very happy for me! Finally, I opened my FB and had a shoutout about my test results! I got a lot of well wishes as well!
God is so good! Thank you po talaga Lord!

The Fear Factor

Whew..Our nursing coordinator congratulated us students for taking the first step towards our nursing career, and for actually surviving the first week. I would say I survived the first week because of this quote tucked in my notebook! (oh and for getting an A in my Pharmacology quiz and assignment! yipeee..) Thanks to everyone who left a message in my last post! I truly appreciate it! Medyo ok na ako, laban na kung laban. Ambisyosa kasi ako at gustong magka LV (the whole collection..hahahahhaha..)
I am sharing with you this post. It came from my friend B. I dont know who the source was. I wish I could thank him/her for writing this...
The Fear Factor
Fear only sees the mountain. Faith sees the mountain mover.
Fear always sees the problem. Faith only sees the promise.
Fear says, “Your dreams will never come true. “ Faith says, “My God is the Dream Maker, and my dreams will come true.”
Fear always says, “No.” Faith says, “Yes.”
Fear always sees God’s fist clenched tightly. Faith always sees God’s hand open.
Fear always sees God’s hand withdrawn. Faith always sees God’s hand extended.
Fear always says, “Give up.” Faith says, “Never give up.”
Fear says, “Quit.” Faith says, “Don’t quit.”
Fear says, “You can’t make it. “ Faith says, “You’re going to make it!”
Fear says, “You’re sick, your dream of being healed will never come to pass.” Faith says, “By His stripes I am healed.”FEAR CANNOT EXIST IN THE PRESENCE OF FAITH. THE GREATEST ANTAGONIST THAT FEAR HAS IS FAITH."

I'm going insane!

School started formally last Tuesday. So I'm back to school--this means I would be not blogging that much again which makes me sad!! Less time with M and H...and myself! :(
The RN program that I am a part of seems really tough! Getting into it was already hard and comprehensive as a selection committee had to choose the top students. I am into a small community college which covers a large area - (I have classmates who drives 1 hour one way just to be in school so I am so blessed that it takes me less than 10 minutes to be here). Now that I am here, I am seriously having second thoughts. I told my husband about it and he said that if I really do not want to do this, all I have to is say "I quit" and he is fine with that. Then I thought, why would I quit when I have worked hard doing my pre requisites in order for me to be accepted in the program? I don't want to give up on my dream of becoming a nurse someday! Then, do I really want to be a nurse? These feelings came after we had our nursing orientation last Tuesday. After that, I started dreaming of my old banking days! Seriously, every night I would dream of me in my blazer attire, shoes with about 2 inch heels, a flattering skirt, with a fab bag! You may call it the corporate attire! I love what I did before! Now, I have to wear scrubs and rubber shoes to be on the go! I have worked for a decade in a wonderful bank and it was something I'd do again if ever I come back home to the Philippines. Now that I am trying to get a different career, a health career move like nursing thought to be a good one for me (with the husband making pilit- he doesnt like the idea that he pushed me to this) ! This one I am in is an entire new career and I have to admit that a part of me makes me sad! Again, I told my husband about it! He concluded that maybe I am a bit overwhelmed with all the information I had to take this first week! And all the assignments that I had to do and all the quizzes that I need to take! Plus my son's potty training, our meals, etc. Bilib nga ako sa mga doktor talaga! How can they handle that amount of knowledge and apply it to their patients? And the pharmacists, ang hirap intindihin ng mga gamot noh..
The very kind hubs offered to do my chores like cooking and laundry but I just could not let go of my chores at this time! I had my Friday off from school and I ended up cleaning and making our house in order! When H got home, he was shocked to find that the house is clean and asked me why can't I let go and trust him to do all our chores? I even cooked 2 meals so I will not have to do some cooking this weekend! He then told me to just stop from whatever I was doing and for the three of us to have dinner some place else. I told him I've already cooked! He said no and insisted that we need to get out of the house!
So H, M and I went out on a Friday night. He wanted to eat in a vietnamese restaurant but it was not kid friendly so we ended up eating at a chinese restaurant - the Panda ! (How i love their sesame seed balls) and my cooked meal ended up in the ref! Afterwards, we went to Home Depot and Office Depot as he wanted to make a great study place for me! An office chair costs around $100 and I said there is no way that I will buy that chair! I am fine studying in my kitchen nook! He insisted that we buy that and that he cannot wait to start his next project! I said, I need to go to school tomorrow to study for pharmacology! So how can you do your woodworks? He said he'll find a way to babysit M and still do his project! So we bought the pieces of wood and some more stuff for the study area project! I have studied for the last year and a half without that study area thingy..i do not know why H thinks we should have one now!
Still, I'm here and wondering why in the world would I want to become a nurse? I know that I wanted to become one before I started but now that I am slowly getting into my dream, I find myself asking that question..Why? I need to find the answer real quick!